Guys… this book fucked me up. I usually feel very much for the characters in books, more so than movies or even people in real life, and this book got me good. I don’t even know where to start on this review because there is just so much that I am angry about, and in so many ways want to hug Sadie and all those girls.
When I decided to read Sadie by Courtney Summers, I thought it would be a great thriller; I had recently been getting into them and was excited for Sadie. What I didn’t realize getting into it was a whole string of sexual assaults and murders. I’m not typically squeamish to these subjects, but the way that this story was written really affected me.
Why It Took Me So Long To Finish
Often I read books in 3-4 days, I am more of a mass reader and love to get things done and find the ending. This wasn’t the case for this book. It was like I knew what the ending was going to be, but I was in denial of it. I didn’t want it to happen. It hurts me to think about what Sadie and Mattie, and all the other girls, went through with Jack around. It took me 10 days to finish Sadie, there were days where the book made me so sad that I didn’t want to pick it up and continue, there were even days where I could only read a chapter or two because I just couldn’t take it.
This book is extremely well written, and I guarantee that any reader will feel the heartache like I do for these girls. I was never sexually assaulted as a child; I couldn’t imagine what these girls were going through. I think this book did a great job of bringing this sensitive topic to the story, and it handled it with such care that it made it easier to read about.
Having a younger sister myself, I related to Sadie a lot. My parents were divorced at a young age, and we spent a lot of time with my mother who was an alcoholic. At a young age, my sister and I really learned how to take care of ourselves and for each other as well. We went through a lot of crap together, and it brought us closer like Mattie and Sadie. Reading about their relationship and care for each other made me so happy. When I had read that Mattie had died, my heart stopped. I knew exactly how Sadie had felt during that time, and I so badly wanted to hug her and hold her. If something like what happened to Mattie happened to my sister I would be in the same boat as Sadie, I would track down whoever did those awful things to my sister.
Podcast and Narrative Format
I love having a non-traditional format for books! It spices things up and gives it a fun twist. This book is part narrative from Sadie’s point of view and part Podcast script. I loved this mix! Lately, true crime podcasts have been huge online, and something I listen to often. Reading the development of one and learning how it all played out was a fun twist. I think the podcast sections helped break up Sadie’s narratives because they were very raw, real and full of many deep emotions. They were sometimes hard to get through because it was just so real. Having the podcast sections helped decipher the timeline, making it easier to follow.
I gave this book 4 stars, and I honestly might change it to 5 stars. I loved the story, the format and the characters. It was very well written. I think in many ways I don’t want to give it 5 stars because it doesn’t make me happy, it just makes me angry with the world. Who could abuse these girls, why would someone do that! It makes me happy to know that even though we don’t know what will happen to Sadie, she saved a lot of girls from being hurt, and even got some people arrested.
If anyone ever needs to talk or you are being sexually assaulted, please talk with someone. Here are a few numbers that can help
Kids Help Phone 1-800-668-6868,
Assaulted Woman’s Helpline 1-866-863-0511,
and Assaulted Men’s Helpline 1-866-887-0015.
There are people out there who can help or just talk to.